5 Things
I think I’ll treat “today” flexibly — I tend to make these posts while there’s still some time remaining in the day, so the evening stuff never gets counted. So from now on, I’ll think of “day” as including the bits of the previous day that came after the 5 Things post. Five things that made me happy today/last night:
- SpeakForEquality.org: local SF activists (“some clergy, some electeds, and some other young punks like myself,” according to local activist Kip Williams, via email) have created a petition asking Speaker Nancy Pelosi to take an active leadership role in passing comprehensive civil rights legislation for GLBTQI folks. The petition will be delivered to Pelosi’s office after the health insurance reform passes. Please sign the petition, especially if you live in Pelosi’s district, and spread the word.
- I woke feeling well rested, without the headache, stomachache, and nausea that plagued me last night.
- C and I had a talk last night about him carving out time for us to spend together. It was a rational conversation, one where we listened to each other’s concerns and tried to come up with a mutually acceptable solution. I know that he has a large quantity of work to do every week, and so if we’re going to spend time together, some of that time will necessarily be spent with him doing work and me doing something else. He knows that I’m being understanding but that I would like to spend some of our time together doing stuff together: talking, hanging out, museum exhibits, walks, whatever. It was a reasonable conversation, even though I was sobbing during most of it–proof that being emotional and being rational are not mutually exclusive–and I’m happy with the way we talked through things. It’s so different from the way most conversations of this sort go, particularly with my parents. I spent the whole day feeling sick with anxiety, until I remembered that C is a reasonable, caring person, and it was highly unlikely that he would scream at me or dismiss my feelings. And he didn’t, and we’ve found a way to work things out. It gives me hope that I can break free of the constraints of nature and nurture and have a happy, functional, and honest relationship with another human being.
- C and I talked about carving persimmons like mini jack-o-lanterns!
- Death Star jack-o-lantern
Q & A
PD: why do i always have friends who are selfish shitheads??
AP: *shrugs *
AP: because you have bad taste
AP: HAHAHHA
PD: thank you
Okay, not all of my friends are selfish shitheads. I just need to cut off the ones that are.
5 Things
Drat, all the things that made me happy were things that happened last night. Does that count? I’ll come up with five things that have made me happy so far today and then do give things from yesterday, too.
- It’s a bright, sunny day. Feeling sunlight on my skin is soothing and energizing.
- Cuddling with C this morning. His room feels so much cozier and homier than mine, and I like waking up with him there.
- I have a bright yellow, smiley face stress ball on my desk at work. C’s mom, Ms. C, sent us a Halloween care package, and the stress ball was part of it. I like that it’s bright yellow–such a cheerful color!–and squishy and smiley, and that it’s something thoughtful that Ms. C sent. It makes me think of my own dysfunctional relationship with my parents, and wonder wistfully, why ours couldn’t me more like C’s and his parents’.
- Winter is coming: late mornings, early nights. I’ll miss the sun, but I love the way the city looks at night, cloaked in a dark blue sky. After sunset, the sky shades from black in the east and orange in the west in a swiftly changing gradient.
- I got a seat on BART this morning. W00t!
Ways Not To Talk To Women
In the same vein as this post on how not to strike up conversations with women, I would like to say:
Dear Creepy Asian-Fetishist Limo Driver,
YOU ARE NOT GOING TO GET A WOMAN INTO YOUR CAR BY SAYING, “I’LL GIVE YOU A RIDE FOR FREE BECAUSE YOU’RE A PRETTY ASIAN, LADY.”
Do you want to know what response your come-on actually produces? This mental chain:
- Ew, what a creep.
- Ew, way to reduce me to my ethnic phenotype and Western fantasies about exotic Asian sex kittens.
- Ew, way to comment on my body and looks and make me feel extremely uncomfortable, whereas previously I had felt confident in my body and gorgeous and happy to be dressed up for my own pleasure.
- Ew, no way am I getting into a car with you, with no guarantee that you’ll keep your hands off and drop me off where I ask, rather than locking the doors and assaulting me, or stalking me around my apartment building once you know where that is.
This limo driver has harassed me twice now, with the result that I no longer try to catch a cab home after the symphony or the opera, because I know that he’s there and that if he sees me without C, he’ll harass me and he won’t take “no” or “leave me alone” for an answer. He’s the reason that I leave out the front door of the opera house and hurry across the street to the bus stand, rather than going out the side exit that passes by the cab queue.
Dear Men,
Street harassment is not acceptable. If it hurts your feelings that you make me feel unsafe, consider that my feelings of fear, anger, and upset are probably way more intense than your temporary feeling of being miffed that you’re not entitled to the smiling attention of every woman in the world.
Sincerely,
PD
Your Body, Your Perspective
The body you inhabit affects your life experiences. This is a very basic, “duh”-level truth, one that goes a long way toward explaining why people have difficulty understanding different kinds of oppression, because the experiences they have are fundamentally different. When I walk down the street by myself, men yell at me, stare at me, and try to get in my way. When my male friends walk down the street by themselves, they … walk down the street. Voila. Amazing! So, when I talk about how infuriating it was to walk two blocks to BART twice a day on the way to and from work, and how I’m hyperaware of the men on the street, they have to think to understand it, because it’s not something that they’ve experienced. They don’t intuitively understand that this is part of my everyday life, that I’m not exaggerating or making things up. They doesn’t understand that as they might allocate two units of mental energy to digging our their keys, I have to allocate two units of mental energy to putting my shields up and power walking past the men hanging out in the plaza, pretending that if I pass them fast enough, I won’t hear them commenting on my body.
I knew this, and yet, I was shocked when C and I had this conversation about white and male privilege:
C: [talking about how it was depressing to realize that he has, and has benefited from, white and male privilege] Sorry, you’re probably thinking, “Ugh, what does he have to complain about?”
PD: No, I know it’s hard to deal with the realization that you have privilege, especially having grown up in a culture that argues that VAWA is sexist against men, or that affirmative action is racist against white people–
C: I really don’t think that’s the culture I grew up in.
PD: Really? You’ve never had a white man claim that he’s oppressed by anti-discrimination? At school, during orientation, there were those minority peer counseling groups–you never had a white boy come in claiming that white is a race, too, and that he’s oppressed by racism?
C: No, and if he had, he’d have been laughed out.
PD: *stunned silent*
I was shocked, because that happened during the first week of college: hip, “I’m so liberal and enlightened that I recognize that white is a race, unlike you racist, backward POC,” white boys coming into minority peer counseling groups saying that white was a race and so they should be allowed to attend these groups, too (and turn what were supposed to be safe spaces for POC into fora that privileged the voices of white boys). It really happened. And people have argued to my face that “VAWA discriminates against men!” and “women’s shelters discriminate against men!” and “affirmative action discriminates against whites!” I’ve experienced this so many times that C’s assertion that he’d never encountered this and that if he had, the perpetrators would have been laughed out of the room, dumbfounded me. He wasn’t saying that these things didn’t happen, just that he’d never seen them, and it was such a drastically different experience of race, gender, and bystander support from mine that I was shocked.
And then I realized, he’s white and he’s male. Of course he’s not going to experience idiot white boys trying to take over POC spaces, because firstly, he wouldn’t have been at the minority peer counseling group to begin with, and secondly, those idiots would have assumed that he agreed with them on account of their shared whiteness, and wouldn’t have brought up their distorted conceptions of race-based discrimination.
C is wonderful and I adore him. It remains shocking that our life experiences have been so drastically different, and not in the sense that individual lives are different, but that they’ve been so fundamentally influenced in broad strokes by our race and gender identities.
5 Things
I am in an abnormally foul mood today–not just irritable, but genuinely angry, to the point where I’m half-afraid of spending time with the +1 today because I’m afraid I’ll bite his head off undeservedly. Ergo, I will take a leaf out of Sahiya’s blog and post about five things that made me happy today. It’s only 12:34 P.M. but goddamnit, the whole morning can’t have been a loss.
- Being
ScrabbleLexulous buddies with Sahiya. We play Scrabble! Our chats are interspersed with seemingly random interjections of “yours” (her) and “urs” (me), which is shorthand for “your turn in Scrabble.” Yay wordgames and wordgame buddies! - Technically from yesterday, but it’s still entertaining: TFLN: “(630): all i remember is you climbed in a garbage can and said you were trashed.” The punning and the visual! Awesome! Also, I have a special fondness for Oscar the Grouch and his worm friend hanging out in the trash can on Sesame St.
- C, my lovely boyfriend, came home for lunch, and just seeing him made me feel much, much better. And I didn’t take his head off!
- Boss S IMed and said that she had taken care of some scheduling issues. I had been dealing with the issues for the past week and quite frankly, I just needed her to go straight to the top because my counterpart and I didn’t have the necessary influence to get this taken care of. Now it has a chance of being resolved.
- C just walked in with a bowl of chicken soup and a bagel and egg sandwich! I have conference calls back to back from noon to 4 P.M., so I don’t have time to make or get lunch, and he made lunch! He’s so thoughtful, and he cooks, and I adore him.
Music & Memories
In the process of reinstalling the OS on my creaky and cranky laptop, I’m going through my music collection. There has to be an easier way to do this than saving everything to an external hard drive, copying it back onto the reinstalled laptop, and creating playlists for each album. Syncing my iTouch to iTunes will also wipe the iTouch clean, I’m assuming, including contacts and notes. The process would be so much more convenient if it were possible to pull data off the iTouch and onto my laptop; is this possible, or does the data transfer only go from iTunes to iTouch? It’s a remarkably stupid way of running things, that and the inability to sync an Apple mp3 player to more than one computer without wiping its contents. My trusty, old, workhorse Zen Creative Jukebox might have been lacking in aesthetic appeal, but I could pull songs from the mp3 player to the laptop and vice versa, and it worked with any computer on which the Zen software had been installed.
But enough of my anti-iPod/-iTouch/-iTunes ranting! What I meant to write about was today’s trip down memory lane, courtesy of going through my mp3 collection. Certain albums and mixes remind me of certain places and times in my life, because I tend to listen to albums obsessively for a period of time, then discard it in favor of something else. Freezepop’s Fancy Ultra Fresh brings to mind hot summer days in Rome, black cobblestones, riding up the Gianicolo on the red 44 bus, Latin, and a crush on a classmate. The Killers’ Hot Fuzz reminds me of living in Boston, walking home late at night and talking with my best friend from high school, who was also commuting home at the same time, even though he was two hours behind me. And so it goes: certain sounds evoke memories of people and places–the interior of a bus, singing in a bar, hours alone in a dark room, the dim glow of red lights and the tang of developer and fixer. One memory triggers the next, forming a chain of reminiscences.
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Starting anew with the things that made me happy today.
Things that made me happy today:
- I spent last night with the +1 at his apartment, then came back to the city today. He was out the door earlier than I was this morning, and so, before I left, I knotted up our ropes in a neat daisy chain and draped it over his pillow with a short note: A domani.
Coping Strategies
When engaged in annoying discussions related to privilege or systemic oppression of any kind, step back, take a deep breath, and cease to engage. Sometimes, it’s just not worth it, because there are some people who refuse to get it and are not arguing in good faith.
Caption:
off-screen person: “Are you coming to bed?”
person typing at computer: “I can’t. This is important.”
off-screen person: “What?”
person typing at computer: “Someone is wrong on the internet.”
That’s my new sign for “Quitting discussion because engagement is futile.”
Other coping strategies when filled with anger at the sheer awfulness of systemic oppression: think happy thoughts. Remember that there are people who are good, people who care. Remember that any, “I. Fucking. Hate. Men.” statement would be sufficiently riddled with exceptions as to remind oneself that one does not, in fact, hate men as a group, just the ones actively wielding their privilege (including the privilege of being ignorant and demanding spoon-feeding education).
Ways Not To Strike Up A Conversation With A Woman
Dear Men-Who-Want-To-Talk-To-Women-But-Don’t-Know-How,
You’re interested in having a conversation with a woman, or at least that’s the impression I get from the way you yell and holler at me. (For the sake of this post, let’s pretend that I’m giving you the benefit of the doubt; let’s pretend that you’re not just catcalling and hollering as an act of aggression intended to establish your dominance over the women you’re harassing.) If you are in fact interested in having a conversation with a heretofore unknown woman without making her feel like a sex object rather than a human being with hopes, dreams, and aspirations, here are some tips on what not to do.
DO NOT:
Come up to a woman and say, “I’ll give you a ride for free, because you’re Asian.” [Man in question is a limo driver] When she says, “No, thanks, I’ll take the bus,” and walks away, follow her down the street and harass her with supposedly flattering comments about her hair, her dress, her ethnicity and repeated requests to get into your vehicle.
WHY NOT: It makes you annoying, because you didn’t leave her alone when she expressed disinterest. It makes you a disgusting, racist fetishist, because you’ve explicitly said that you’re interested on account of her race, and presumably whatever assumptions you’re making about it. It makes you creepy, because you won’t leave her alone and physically followed her. It makes you even creepier and potentially dangerous, because you won’t leave her alone and are intent on getting her into a vehicle that you are in control of.
Open with comments on the woman’s race or appearance, such as, “Hi, are you Chinese?” or, “Hi, gorgeous.”
WHY NOT: It implies that you are a creepy, racist Asian fetishist. It implies that all you see about her is her race. It reduces her down to her race, and there’s a probability of 1 that she’s heard the question before and is tired of complete strangers playing 20 Questions with her race and identity. Furthermore, even flattering comments about her appearance are problematic, because they’re nearly always implicitly sexist and support the assumptions that women are supposed to be decorative and attractive, and that they’re doing it for the observers, not for themselves. Their appearance is not for your evaluation.
Mutter, “Hey, sweetheart!” under your breath as you’re walking past a woman on the sidewalk.
WHY NOT: If you actually want to talk to her, muttering at her while you walk past and away is a bad strategy. It says, “I’m not really interested in talking to you, I just feel entitled to comment on you/your body in passing, as if you were an animal at the 4-H fair.” It also says, “I’m commenting on you–not to you, but on you–with no prior interaction, so the only thing I have to consider is your appearance, and I’m judging it, as if your appearance is for my sake, not yours.”
Call, “Hi,” at a woman in front of you as she’s walking through a subway station. Call, “Hi,” again after she ignores you. Call, “Can you hear me?” after she ignores you again.
WHY NOT: Calling at random people in the crowd is not a winning technique. Would you stop in the middle of your commute for some random person yelling at you, whom you’d never met before, who couldn’t be arsed to say, “Excuse me,” or come up to you or even enter your field of vision? Expecting her to stop, turn around, locate you, and engage in conversation with you after you’ve tried to call her to heel like an off-leash dog is sheer entitlement: a feeling of entitlement to her time and to her attention. It’s flat out rude, as well as stupid.
If you do want to have a conversation with a female stranger–I said, “have a conversation,” mind, not, “chat her up and hit on her”–and don’t want to come off as a sexist creep, here are some suggestions:
DO make sure you’re not bothering her. If she’s using her phone; listening to music; reading a book; looking at the bus map; or otherwise engaged, don’t interrupt her. Would you want to be interrupted by a complete stranger? No, not everyone minds it, but it’s better to err on the side of not being an ass. Bear in mind that some of these things are defensive techniques that some women have adopted specifically to keep asses away–”If I look busy/have headphones in/am buried in a book, maybe he’ll leave me the fuck alone.”
DO pay attention to her reactions. If she answers with monosyllabic words, keeps her attention focused on her book, doesn’t try to carry any of the conversation, or pointedly tells you that she’s married and waiting for her spouse (whether or not she’s got a ring on), politely end with something like, “It was nice to meet you,” or, “have a nice day,” and leave off.
DO introduce yourself or say, “Excuse me,” or find something relevant to say. For example, I was once holding a sack of pears at the farmers’ market, and a man asked if I’d tried the apples at his stand, and we had a conversation about stall fees at the various markets in SF. It was an interesting topic, and although I’d initially gotten weird vibes from him, I decided to give him the benefit of the doubt and assume that he wanted to have an actual conversation.
Of course, then he ruined it by saying, “Actually, I only wanted to talk to you because you look so pretty.” In other words, he wasn’t actually interested in having a conversation with me about farmers’ markets–he was interested in getting my attention because he thought I had a hot bod, and for some reason, he thought I’d like to know that. Way to make me feel reduced to a sex object.
Actually, that’s been my experience multiple times in the past. For the guys who whine that they can’t have an innocent conversation with women because women will assume that they have ulterior motives, all I have to say is this: stop having ulterior motives. No guy who’s actually been interested in having an innocuous conversation with me has given me the creep vibes. We’ve had innocuous conversations that passed the time on the bus or in a coffee line. The only guys I get the annoying creep vibes from are the ones who inevitably indicate, whether by verbal or physical gesture, that it’s not a friendly conversation they’re after.
Sincerely,
PD
Where Are the Men?
Another annoying NYT article, this time in the Health section, “From Birth, Engage Your Child With Talk,” chastises Brooklyn “mothers and nannies … tuned in to their cellphones, BlackBerrys and iPods, not their young children.” While the article’s basic premise (talk to your kid!), the article is off-putting in two respects:
1. Things were better in the old days! We had no high-tech devices then, so everyone was a great parent!
2. Damned mothers and nannies! Too selfishly absorbed in their conversations, emails, texts, and music to devote every waking minute and iota of attention to their babies or charges!
The first is the kind of knee-jerk, anecdotes-are-data, regressive, technology-warps-our-minds thinking that I don’t have much of a counter for, because it’s so patently ridiculous. Does a parent have to give every bit of her or his attention to their child? What if the kid’s asleep? Or tired? Or cranky? Or if you have a business call? Is it ever permissible to check your text messages in the presence of a toddler, or is it always a diversion of attention you ought to be paying to the kid? Actually, if you’re a parent, are you allowed to have a life independent of dancing around your child?
The second just grates. I want to know, where are the fathers in this picture? Why aren’t they out taking their kids for strolls and talking to them? Why isn’t any of the responsibility on them? At least the mothers and nannies are having conversations in the presence of the kids, so the kids are picking up some words; the fathers aren’t even around! They’re neglecting their kids’ verbal development entirely! OH MY GOD NO!
The assumptions behind the comment about “mothers and nannies” are that (1) women are always 100% responsible for child-rearing; dad isn’t even in the picture; (2) since they’re the ones responsible for child-rearing, women have to devote 100% of their attention to their kids. That latter point makes it difficult for women to have a life outside their kids…which I guess is the point. Gotta love the patriarchy.
Who’s stupider?
David Brooks, or the NYT for hiring him? At worst, his columns reek of a complacent, self-satisfied, privileged understanding of the world that has no connection to the experiences of anyone not rich, able-bodied, white, male, heterosexual, and cisgendered. At best, his columns are idiotic maundering about how he’d rather be a rugged mountain man than a beach lounger, but alas, he’s chosen to be a beach lounger. Wah, wah–seriously, cry me a fucking river. His most recent column, “The Next Culture War,” falls into the latter category. It’s classic David Brooks: sweeping statements that paint a picture of the good old days in America, when everyone was affluent but frugal, materialistic but moral. And then came the last 30 years, when society as we knew descended into depravity! Crass consumerism! Greed! Never before had such things happened in America, especially not among the ranks of the wealthy!
“Human nature, in no form of it, could ever bear prosperity,” John Adams wrote in a letter to Thomas Jefferson, warning against the coming corruption of his country.
Yet despite its amazing wealth, the United States has generally remained immune to this cycle. American living standards surpassed European living standards as early as 1740. But in the U.S., affluence did not lead to indulgence and decline.
That’s because despite the country’s notorious materialism, there has always been a countervailing stream of sound economic values. The early settlers believed in Calvinist restraint. The pioneers volunteered for brutal hardship during their treks out west. Waves of immigrant parents worked hard and practiced self-denial so their children could succeed. Government was limited and did not protect people from the consequences of their actions, thus enforcing discipline and restraint.
Whenever I read one of these columns, I wonder how one gets to be an op-ed writer for the NYT. The excerpted paragraphs are full of broad assertions with nary a shred of supporting evidence.
The old WASPs were notoriously cheap, sent their children to Spartan boarding schools, and insisted on financial sobriety.
That sentence falls into the “disconnected from anyone outside his economic stratum” category. “Notoriously cheap” means sending your kids to “Spartan boarding schools?” Right. I’m sure Choate and Andover and whatever other New England bastions of private schooling Brooks is referring to are the height of spartan anti-luxury and frugality.
This sentence falls into both the disconnected and the “sweeping, inaccurate generalizations” category:
Our current cultural politics are organized by the obsolete culture war, which has put secular liberals on one side and religious conservatives on the other.
I suppose that if you’re rich, white, able-bodied, straight, cis, and male, then silly things such as women’s rights to control their own bodies, along with access to reproductive health care, or the right of GLBTQI people to live, work, marry, and love without harassment are part of the “obsolete culture war.” Going off my experience escorting at Planned Parenthood last week, the “culture war” is by no means obsolete. The fervent anti-reproductive rights effort to ban all funding for abortion from health insurance reform also indicates that the “culture war” is ongoing and relevant to contemporary politics. Additionally, the divide is not nearly as clear cut as “secular liberals” and “religious conservatives.” There are many people of faith who are liberals (such as the Christian church with a booth at Folsom St. Fair) and many conservatives who are atheists.
And, of course, any column on the decline of modern American civilization would be incomplete without the obligatory poke at fat people:
Chain restaurants went into supersize mode, offering gigantic portions that would have been considered socially unacceptable to an earlier generation.
What I want to know is, why do my high school teachers have higher standards for argumentation, writing, and intellectual rigor than the editors of the NYT op-ed section?
P.S. Quit it with the “society was great for hundreds of years, and then it declined.” Things were never better in the age of the maiores, David, and that song and dance were worn out way before Sallust and Livy got to it.
Minor Gripes
In Play the Game, the romantic comedy I mentioned in my last post, one trick that the male lead uses pick up women is to “unexpectedly” find gift certificates to Charlie Trotter’s in his coat pocket and say, “Oh, I’ve been looking for these! Gift certificates to my girlfriend’s / mom’s favorite restaurant! Oh, no, they expire this weekend, and my girlfriend / mom is out of town until next week! Here, why don’t you take these, and take someone who appreciates good food?”
At that point, the woman is supposed to bite her lip, look thrilled but hesitant, look coyly up at the lead through her lashes, and say, “Oh, I couldn’t, unless–why don’t you come with me?”
Of course, the male lead accepts, and they happily have dinner at Charlie Trotter’s.
The problem is, no one offers a complete stranger gift certificates to Charlie Trotter’s. It would be akin to saying, “Oh, look, I forgot that I had $300 in my pocket! Would you like to have it?” Charlie Trotter’s isn’t a casual restaurant or even a medium-expensive restaurant, it’s the kind of place that only offers tasting menus at $150 a head. Trotter is one of the most influential chefs in America and was the first to do small plate tasting courses. You don’t just offer a complete stranger your gift certificates to Trotter’s. It’s not believable; get your incidental details right, people, especially when they’re a running joke in the film.
I fully admit it’s a stupid nit to pick, but it bothered me throughout the movie. Frankly, it’s easier to rant about than everything else that bothered me about the film.
I Wish
…that movies would stop making jokes about getting people drunk in order to “have sex” with them. Deliberately feeding someone alcohol in order to get them drunk so that they’ll “have sex” “with” you is rape. Interestingly, it assumes that your victim would not willingly choose to do so when in her or his right mind, which ought to make it even clearer that plying her or him with drink is an explicit attempt to get her or him to the point where her or his judgment is seriously compromised and she or he is incapable of consenting to sex. Having sex “with” someone without their consent is rape. Getting someone to a point where they’re not capable of giving consent means that they are by default in a state of not consenting.
Rape is not just forging ahead and having sex when your partner says, “No.” Rape is having sex when you’ve made it so that your partner is incapable of saying, “No,” or is too drunk to know what the hell yes and no mean, or what they’re saying yes or no to.
The latest offender in this regard is Play the Game, an indie romantic comedy where a young, able-bodied white man tries to teach his old, white grandfather how to pick up “chicks.” One thing he mentions is that when you’re sharing a bottle of wine with a woman and she pours more wine into your glass than hers, it’s a sign that she’s interested in you. As an illustration of this idea, the young man has a bottle of wine with a woman at the bar and then tells her that he needs to go home to his girlfriend. Immediately, the woman asks him to stay for just one more drink and tops off their glasses. Cue a shot of the wine glasses, which look like this:
Her wine glass is a third full. His wine glass is full to the brim.
Hardy har har, indeed–except I must have been the only person in the theater not roaring with laughter. The wine pour becomes a running gag in the film, reoccurring again when the grandfather’s girlfriend slips powdered Viagra into his wine goblet and pours it completely full. Drugging someone without their knowledge! Getting Grandpa drunk and aroused when he’s already expressed an unwillingness to have sex with her! Specifically putting Grandpa in a position of physically wanting to have sex while mentally compromising him in order to overcome his intellectual desire to not have sex! HARDY HAR HAR! Later, the main character pulls the wine trick with the woman he’s been pursuing for the entire film, who has handily resisted him and expressed interest in other men the entire time–HARDY HAR HAR! Pouring people wine to overcome their stated resistance to having sex with you–HARDY HAR HAR!
Getting someone drunk in order to compromise their judgment so that you can have sex with them is rape. Yet, Play the Game treated it as a joke, presenting it as something that’s acceptable for young people to do at bars and as something that’s laughable for old people to do in retirement homes. It’s not a bloody joke, it’s a crime, but the movie normalized it as harmless fun, common behavior, and worst of all, as a sign that your rapist is romantically interested in you. Gee, I guess rape victims should feel flattered, eh?
On the one hand, women are frequently blamed when rapists rape them, and the victim-blaming is even more intense if the women have had so much as a drop of alcohol. The UK government even ran PSAs suggesting that being raped was the consequence of women drinking. On the other hand, pop culture serves up entertainment that treats getting people drunk in order to rape them as harmless fun. Rape is such a joke–if you’re the one pouring the wine.
“You’re Easy”
I’ve been thinking a lot about random things lately and consequently may end up making lots of short posts.
Sarahtales has a fabulous post about how readers read male and female characters in fiction: “Ladies, Please (Carry On Being Awesome).” In the comments, Serafina_zane says, “There are so many depressing double standards (call a girl a whore? she’s useless forever! manwhore? lol funny joke!”
Her comment reminded me of this incident in my life:
On her first night in A City Abroad, PD has lots of sex with a stranger. The next day, Stranger asks her to come by his shop that night. Owing to Stranger’s English being crap, PD occasionally having hearing problems (sometimes people speak to me and my brain hears gibberish. It is weird.), and PD not expecting Stranger to want to repeat the one night stand, PD does not show up that night.
The next day, PD and Stranger run into each other and Stranger asks PD to go out again that night. PD says sorry, she’s got plans with someone else. Stranger becomes irate and demands to know if the someone else is a man and who he is, and eventually yells, “You’re easy!” He adds something about how he thought PD was special and obviously he was wrong, and storms off.
PD is completely befuddled, thinking,
- I like having sex. What of it?
- You call me “easy” as if it were a bad thing, which is hypocritical considering if I weren’t, I wouldn’t have slept with you the other night.
- Double standard, much? If I’m easy, what does that make you?
- Dude, I slept with you, a complete stranger, on my first night in this city. What did you think, that you were a special, unique snowflake and that I would only ever sleep with you? We had sex; that does not mean that you own me and it doesn’t negate my ability to choose to have sex with other people.
- Grow the fuck up.
I still don’t understand it. Furthermore, I don’t understand why “easy” is supposed to be insulting. It’s a logicfail kind of thing — intellectually, I know why (sexism, virgin/whore dichotomy, fetishization of virginity in women, woman-as-property, construction of man-as-virile-taker-of-sex and woman-as-reluctant-giver-of-sex, etc.), but I fundamentally don’t understand it. It’s like this kind of logicfail, where my brain says, “Does not compute!” Being “easy” is not a bad thing. Being “easy” is not a good thing. It shouldn’t carry any moral connotations, because what matters about sex is not how often or with how many people you have it, but that it is always your choice, with consent freely given and freely accepted.
Escorting at Clinics: 40 Days for “Life”
Via Bitch Ph.D.: Operation Rescue will be protesting women’s health clinics across the country from September 23 to November 1 for their self-proclaimed 40 Days for “Life.” What are the 40 Days for “Life”? Their website claims,
40 Days for Life is a community-based campaign that draws attention to the evil of abortion through the use of a three-point program:
* Prayer and fasting
* Constant vigil
* Community outreach40 Days for Life takes a determined, peaceful approach to showing local communities the consequences of abortion in their own neighborhoods, for their own friends and families. It puts into action a desire to cooperate with God in the carrying out of His plan for the end of abortion in America.
I am a clinic escort at Planned Parenthood and on top of the usual protesters that show up every Monday and Saturday, my clinic was already targeted for the 40 Days for “Life” earlier this year. I can tell you that the 40 Days for “Life” are less about peaceful Christian fellowship than about harassing, intimidating, and shaming girls and women for going to Planned Parenthood, whether it’s for their annual check up or for an abortion. The protesters at my clinic carry giant signs with pictures of what they claim are aborted fetuses (said pictures look like dismembered plastic dolls covered in kung pao chicken sauce, but that’s just my non-medical expert opinion), which are meant to horrify and scare women and girls. They yell at the top of their lungs that anyone who goes into Planned Parenthood will go to Hell. They hand out pamphlets proclaiming the lie that abortion causes breast cancer. They shout, “Adoption is a better option.” With the pictures, pamphlets, and physical intimidation, the protesters try to prevent girls and women from entering the clinic, so that they won’t receive the medical care that they have chosen and need. Additionally, after Scott Roeder murdered Dr. Tiller, when any person with a sense of compassion or two brain cells to rub together would have realized that clinic patients, workers and escorts would be feeling rattled and scared for their safety, the local protesters stepped up their harassment. In an email shortly after the murder, my clinic’s escort coordinator wrote,
Since the appalling murder of Dr. Tiller, our protesters decided to show up the Tuesday before last … And one staff member told us that because there were no escorts present they were fairly aggressive. We had escorts at this clinic this Tuesday and although one of our regular protesters drove by, he didn’t stop because we were there.
and in a later email,
I’m truly amazed at the right wing response to Dr. Tiller’s death – how outrageous can they be? I thought that our protesters would be kinder/gentler and its simply unbelievable that they’re getting more aggressive. I (mistakenly) thought that our protesters would behave.
In retrospect, I believe that the protesters stepped up their harassment because they knew that people would be frightened by the murder, and they wanted to capitalize on that. Hardly a Christian attitude.
ACTION ITEM: The 40 Days for “Life” are targeting clinics across the country. Their website has a list of the locations. Check to see if they’re protesting in your area, and if they are, contact the clinic to see if they could use your help. Search for volunteer opportunities at Planned Parenthood here.
The “peaceful” approach of the anti-choice protesters includes:
- Approaching girls and women and yelling, “You’re killing your baby! Murderer!”
- Approaching girls and women and attempting to step between them and the clinic entrance, while shoving pamphlets about adoption and lies about abortion at them.
- Approaching girls and women and yelling, “Do you know what they do in there? They kill babies! If you kill your baby, you will go to Hell!”
- Approaching girls and women and yelling, “Adoption is a better option!”
- Setting up a sidewalk altar near the clinic entrance with statues of Mary and Jesus. Kneeling in front of the altar and praying loudly.
- Standing near the clinic entrance in groups of three or more and loudly saying the rosary.
- Standing near the clinic entrance in groups of as many as six or more and yelling at the clinic escorts: “You will burn in the flames of hell! And when you have a baby, God will kill him because of your evil!”
- Setting up chairs and a stereo on the opposite side of the street and blasting anti-choice Christian music.
- Holding large signs with graphic images that purport to depict aborted fetuses.
- Repeatedly violating San Francisco’s bubble ordinance by approaching patients as they exit and enter the clinic.
Far from depiction of the small, lone teenager that protests the abortion clinic in Juno, the protesters at my local clinic range in number from three to more than fifteen, often arrive in shifts, range in age from teenage to elderly, are male and female, are vocal, are loud, are physically intimidating, and often gang up on clinic patients so that patients must physically shove through them to get to the clinic. Yes, they are ridiculous, but their intent is to intimidate any girl or woman who so much as passes by a Planned Parenthood.
If you can, please consider finding the time to help out your local clinic by volunteering as a clinic escort or in another capacity. Escorts present a welcoming face to patients and employees as they go in and out of the clinic; deter the protesters from escalating their intimidation and aggressiveness; and help patients avoid the protesters, inasmuch as it’s possible.
More reading: Think Progress on Operation Rescue and Roeder
Shakesville: Breaking the Silence: On Living Pro-Lifers’ Choice for Women – a guest post about giving a child up for adoption.
Poll!
It has recently been made clear to me that fewer people read in the shower than I had previously thought! I.e., the people whom I might reasonably suspect to be in the habit of reading while shampooing their hair have indicated that they do not, in fact, take books into the shower with them.
Hence, a poll, inspired by this post at TFLN (“(518): im starting to measure my showers by the number of beers i drink while im in there.”), which I shared in Google Reader, and the discussion that ensued in the comments:
Ben: Do you read in the shower?
PD: Yes. Do you?
Ben: No… I’m too busy… showering
PD: I get my showering done, too. I just get bored without a book!
Ben: Doesn’t this prolong your shower –> waste more water –> lead to ecological collapse –> WHY DO YOU HATE MOTHER EARTH, [PD]?
PD: That’s what I thought about the beer-drinker — how long is she/he showering for?! But reading in the shower is ecologically sound, because I just read for brief snippets of time – while getting hair wet or rinsing shampoo out, etc. In fact, if I didn’t read in the shower, I would stand around enjoying the hot water and prolong the shower. So reading in the shower is actually good for the environment!
SW: how do you keep the book from getting soaked? Especially with wet hands?
PD: Carefully. It is not for the faint of heart, or for those who like their books pristine.
I Like You, Too
He said:
I like that you speak your mind.
I like that you’re passionate.
It’s easy to keep my shields up and say, “You’d better, because that’s not going to change,” but that would cheapen his comments and what they mean to me. How many times have my nearest and dearest told me that I care too much, that I’m too strident, that I’m too serious and humorless, that I’m too political, that I read too much into things, that I shouldn’t speak up or speak out so much, that I should let homophobia or sexism or transphobia or racism or classism pass unchecked in order to keep the social peace? How many times have my nearest and dearest muttered, “It was just a joke,” or repeated themselves and said, “but it’s true! Black people are thieves/Muslims are lazy/Transpeople are freaks/Midwesterners are ignorant, gun-toting, Bible-thumping crazies!”* after my jaw dropped and I said, “That’s not true?”
Ask me why family-and-friends get-togethers make me anxious. Ask me why I dislike seeing specific family friends. My worries are always thus: What sexist thing will Uncle X say this time? Will Church Friends talk about Prop. 8 and the “sanctity of marriage?” Will Family Friend A rant about “crazy men who want to be women?” And will I speak up, knowing that my mother will yell at me for being too strident, too political, too rude (too feminist, too queer, too anti-transphobia)? Or will I silently hunker down, sink into my seat, and feel sick and a failure besides?
How many people have said, “I’m sorry for saying a sexist thing, please keep calling me on it and please help me, because I don’t know any better?”
Twice. And that’s good. It’s better than being dismissed or berated, but it’s tiring, too, and sometimes, I wish that those two folks would just know better, or at least remember that we’ve already had that exact same conversation about calling women hags or calling things lame and retarded.
How many people have said, “I like that you’re passionate,” after I ranted about Clinton and sexist double standards in the media?
How many people have said, “I like that you speak your mind,” after I politely called out a friend’s characterization of things as “white trash?”
One. When I chose not to smile and ignore classist and sexist comments at a dinner with friends, the +1 didn’t cringe, didn’t shut me down, and didn’t make excuses for my “poor” behavior (e.g. “oh, she’s a feminist/too PC/etc., you know, don’t mind her!”). That already put him a step ahead of my parents and some longtime friends.
And then, he said that he liked me for speaking my mind. No one’s ever said that before. I’m not an embarrassment to him–he doesn’t like me despite my feminist baggage. He sees that the baggage is inescapably a part of me–and he likes that. I didn’t think I’d ever find someone like that, let alone someone whom I liked who liked me in return. And we met at random. And he’s lovely.
I am so lucky.
I like you, too.
*All real conversations at family-and-friends get-togethers.
Feminism: Concrete Policy Suggestions
[Trigger warnings for the post, especially for the links about the Congo and rape.]
Ben and I recently had a conversation about feminism:
Ben: if i were to levy one criticism
Ben: at the feminist movement
Ben: its that i dont hear very many
Ben: concrete policy suggestions
PD: …
Ben: (not that its their responsibility)
PD: sriously?
Before anyone hops over to his blog to bite his head off, (1) Ben is not a troll; (2) he was commenting in good faith; (3) I think this speaks to our society’s general lack of understanding of the political work of feminism. BitchPhD recently posted on the many ways in which she and her family benefits from the works of the government; many of those benefits are invisible in that they’re taken for granted and assumed to be the Way Things Are, as if they’d magically, effortlessly sprung into existence years ago. The political work of feminists (who are by no means a monolithic movement) similarly blends into the landscape, if you’re not actively looking for it and considering, “Gee, why is it that my girlfriend can get birth control every month?” Another factor is that for as much as feminists do, a good portion of their political activism is necessarily about working to prevent sexist laws and policies. When they succeed, few people take notice, because in such cases, success means that the status quo remains the same.
So, here are some ways that I see the effects of feminists’ concrete, political work in my everyday life.
When I wake up in the morning, I wake up in my own apartment. That’s because I’m allowed to sign the lease in my own name, even though I’m a woman. In fact, if I had the money and the desire, I could even have a house with the deed in my own name, because women are allowed to own property these days. I pay for the apartment with rent checks that I write myself from my own bank account, because women can have bank accounts that aren’t in the names of their fathers or husbands. I pay for the rent with a high-paying job that I got because I went to a good university. I was able to go to that good university because it went co-ed in 1969, not without a determined effort on the part of feminists to open up higher education to women.
After I wake up, the +1 and I have sex. If the condom were to break, I could go to the nearest pharmacy and get emergency contraception over the counter, because the FDA approved over-the-counter use of emergency contraception in 2006, not without a determined effort on the part of feminists, both everyday people and political officials:
“We urge the FDA to revisit placing age restrictions on the sale of Plan B,” said Sens. Hillary Rodham Clinton (D-N.Y.) and Patty Murray (D-Wash.). But because the decision represents “real progress” and an “important step in restoring the American people’s faith in the FDA,” the senators said, they were lifting a hold they had imposed on von Eschenbach’s confirmation as FDA commissioner.
In California, I can walk into any pharmacy for that Plan B because California doesn’t allow pharmacists to refuse to provide medications that go against their religious beliefs. The lack of a so-called “conscience clause” at the state level (although the HHS rule change threatens this) is due to the political work of NOW, Planned Parenthood, and the hundreds of everyday feminists who staff, donate to, and volunteer for those organizations, as well as the everyday feminists who contacted their public officials on these matters and asked them to support a woman’s right to decide her reproductive future.
If I were a minor and the +1 and I had accidentally created a fetus, I would be able to go to a Planned Parenthood and get an abortion without needing to get my parents’ permission, because feminists campaigned against Prop. 4 in last year’s election. The campaign involved websites, online ads, TV ads, mailers, op-eds, and thousands of person-hours’ worth of phone banking, building coalitions with local political groups, knocking on doors, canvassing for volunteers, and talking to people. The preservation of a teenage girl’s ability to get an abortion required the investment of millions of dollars and thousands of hours of work–but from this side of the election, it’s concrete policy work that’s invisible, because it was about maintaining the status quo rather than enacting a new policy. It was necessary nonetheless, because misogynistic, anti-choice activists are constantly campaigning to repeal all the progress that feminists and their allies have made. Prop. 4 was the third time in four years that anti-choicers tried to pass a referendum requiring parental notification/consent.
If the +1 and I were married and accidentally created a fetus and Plan B didn’t work, I could get an abortion without his permission, because in 1992, Planned Parenthood v. Casey ruled husband notification laws unconstitutional. However, in the unlikely circumstance that I wanted the pregnancy, but ended up needing a late-term abortion, the Partial-Birth Abortion Ban Act, Gonzales v. Carhart and the lack of abortion providers (due in no small part to the active harassment of such doctors) would make it difficult to obtain. Incidentally, part of Justice Kennedy’s reasoning in Gonzales boiled down to an argument that women are not sufficiently mentally competent to make decisions for themselves about partial-birth abortions, and so in order to protect them from the regret they may feel after the fact, the state ought to ban partial-birth abortions. This was in 2007; the idea that women intelligent human beings fully capable of making decisions and living with the consequences has by no means permeated the three branches of our government.
After the +1 and I get out of bed, I dress for work. Usually, I wear pants, even though I work in a conservative field. This is because if my company’s dress code explicitly required women to wear hose, heels, skirts, and makeup, there are laws that would allow me to sue them for imposing rules that unfairly place a material burden on women (hose, heels, skirts, and makeup have a cost in time, money, and physical health) based solely on gender stereotypes rather than the requirements of the job. These laws didn’t spring up out of nowhere, either. Then, I go to the office.
At work, I hold a job other than that of administrative assistant. All of our administrative assistants are women, but there are also women who are principals and managing directors and analysts. This is because Title VII of the Civil Rights Act prohibits discrimination based on a number of protected traits, including sex. In other words, my employer can’t hire women solely for the lower-paying jobs. Speaking of pay, the male analysts and I made the same starting salary, doing the same work with the same qualifications. This is because of the Equal Pay Act of 1963. However, if I were to find out that the male analysts made more than I did for doing the same work, I could bring an equal pay lawsuit. I could sue the company even if I found out about the pay discrimination more than 180 days after it had begun, because the Lilly Ledbetter Fair Pay Act of 2009 amended the statute of limitations in Title VII. Incidentally, feminists are still working on the equal pay issue, and then-Sen. Hillary Clinton and Rep. Rosa DeLauro introduced the Paycheck Fairness Act in the House and Senate this past January. That’s awfully recent, and you can’t get much more concrete than a proposed law.
When I check my email, there’s an action alert from Planned Parenthood, who want me to call the governor’s office and my state senator and representative, asking them to repeal the budget cuts for family planning services, which “provides essential health care to millions of women including breast and cervical cancer screenings, contraception and preventive care.” Planned Parenthood also organizes trips to the state capitol on lobbying days so that they can speak with public officials and ask them to support policies for women’s health care and reproductive rights.
Change.org has an email asking me to support Senator Barbara Boxer’s Afghan Women Empowerment Act, which “would provide critical resources for Afghan women for literacy education, technical and vocational training and health care services that would reduce maternal and infant mortality. The bill will also fund programs to protect women and girls against sexual and physical abuse, abduction, trafficking, exploitation, and includes emergency shelters for women and girls who face danger from violence.”
Speaking of feminists and foreign policy, feminists have consistently been advocating both offline and online to raise awareness of the brutal rape epidemic against women in the Congo and urging people to take political and economic action. Clinton pledged to address the rape epidemic as part of U.S. foreign policy in her confirmation hearings and recently pledged $17M to fight sexual violence in the Congo.
Other action alert-type emails in my inbox pertain to the Employment Non-Discrimination Act (ENDA), which would make it illegal to fire, refuse to hire, or refuse to promote employees simply based on sexual orientation or gender identity; overturning the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA); and overturning Don’t Ask Don’t Tell (DADT). All of these are feminist issues; they affect women and are based on confining everyone to patriarchal, heteronormative gender roles.
I work late and end up walking home after nightfall. I know the rape statistics: strangers are less likely to assault me than men I’m already acquainted with. However, when I hear footsteps behind me that match my pace, even when I speed up, I can’t help but think about how as a woman of color, if a man raped me, I couldn’t necessarily trust the police to help me. Even if they did, I might have trouble getting a rape kit. The hospital might bill my insurance provider, opening up a whole new bucket of worms, or they might require me to file a police report within a certain period, or they might require the police to verify that they’re investigating the case (which doesn’t always happen). Assuming that everything went smoothly at the hospital, that’s still no guarantee that the rape kit would ever be processed before the statute of limitations passed. These problems–rape, police brutality, indifferent or rape apologist prosecutors, rape kit billing problems–are all issues that feminists are addressing.
On the way home, a man asks if I’m Chinese, gorgeous. Another man blocks the sidewalk so that I can’t move around him, shoves his face so close that he’s breathing on me, leers, and says, “Mmm.” This is street harassment. Feminists are working to combat street harassment at the grassroots level; police officers aren’t always reliable.
Eventually, I make it home. If it isn’t clear by now, the political impacts and political issues of feminists are woven inextricably into the fabric of our daily lives.
